This is an expression I’ve found myself using a lot lately. Partly due to it being an appropriate summation of my life, partly due to the fact that I have found that I’ve had to tell the same stories more than once to the same people. It is not until the deja vu kicks in that I realise. “Wait a sec… I’ve said this exact same line to this person yesterday!”
This got me thinking about why this particular saying appeals to me. I remember the first time I heard it was on a kid’s cartoon when I must have been around 10 years old. Like when you learn a new word later in life, once you’re aware of it you start hearing it everywhere. Except I didn’t so much hear it everywhere as much as simply adopt it as an expression over the common favourite: ‘Story Of My Life.’
I think this resonates personally – socially, romantically and in terms of aspiration. I feel that I’m consistently falling short of my targets and dreams, and really have been all my life. You know that common interview question “What’s your greatest achievement?” That’s a great trigger for me to think “Well shit, Mister Manager Guy, truth be told I ain’t proud of much!” Although as I’ve gotten older I tend to blame myself less for these short-comings, my overly-analytic nature maintains its tendency to try and find reason (or at least a fun rhyme) to it all. For nought. Consistently. I think we saw that coming, right?
You may have noticed that I’m only using pictures from cartoons I watched as a kid (and may have re-watched a little later). It’s mainly because they’re appropriate (in my head at least) but partly because I think I would prefer to live in a cartoon. I’m done with everything else – just pencil me in for a 20 minute episode per day and each day is crazy and different.
I’ve digressed from the vague point I was trying to make… which I’ve lost sight of completely now. Thanks. Well done for letting me get so damn sidetracked! I now have as much point to me as a circle – I’m not even sorry. You let me escape on a tangent, so I’m going to drop bad geometry puns. Deal with it. SOH-CAH-TOA!
Anyway, creeping insanity (or leaking sanity… whatever) aside, I would like to say I’ve some findings on why I think that my goals are forever just out of reach, but I don’t. As a consolation for your time, here are some philosophies of my own:
The difference between “Can” and “Can’t” is will power.
The difference between “Will” and “Won’t” is inebriation.
Now in a sales environment again, I’m thinking how to translate a few new techniques into a social format. Once I’ve made some progress on that, or found a solution for being perpetually second-rate, I’ll be dangerous I’m sure. There is no way I’d ever be on the good guys’ team. You all best hope I never get super powers, because I’m no hero.
Listening To: Candy Coated Fury – Reel Big Fish
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